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GENERAL PREFACE
THE EVOLUTION OF MODESTY-1.1
THE EVOLUTION OF MODESTY-1.2
THE EVOLUTION OF MODESTY-1.3
THE EVOLUTION OF MODESTY-1.4
THE EVOLUTION OF MODESTY-1.5
THE EVOLUTION OF MODESTY-1.6
THE EVOLUTION OF MODESTY-2.1
THE EVOLUTION OF MODESTY-2.2
THE EVOLUTION OF MODESTY-2.3
THE EVOLUTION OF MODESTY-2.4
THE EVOLUTION OF MODESTY-2.5
THE EVOLUTION OF MODESTY-3
THE EVOLUTION OF MODESTY-4
THE PHENOMENA OF SEXUAL PERIODICITY-1.1
THE PHENOMENA OF SEXUAL PERIODICITY-1.2
FOOTNOTES
THE PHENOMENA OF SEXUAL PERIODICITY-2.1
THE PHENOMENA OF SEXUAL PERIODICITY-2.2
THE PHENOMENA OF SEXUAL PERIODICITY-2.3
THE PHENOMENA OF SEXUAL PERIODICITY-3.1
THE PHENOMENA OF SEXUAL PERIODICITY-3.2
THE PHENOMENA OF SEXUAL PERIODICITY-3.3
THE PHENOMENA OF SEXUAL PERIODICITY-3.4
THE PHENOMENA OF SEXUAL PERIODICITY-3.5
FOOTNOTES
AUTO-EROTISM: A STUDY OF THE SPONTANEOUS MANIFESTATIONS OF THE SEXUAL IMPULSE-1.1
AUTO-EROTISM: A STUDY OF THE SPONTANEOUS MANIFESTATIONS OF THE SEXUAL IMPULSE-1.2
AUTO-EROTISM: A STUDY OF THE SPONTANEOUS MANIFESTATIONS OF THE SEXUAL IMPULSE-1.3
AUTO-EROTISM: A STUDY OF THE SPONTANEOUS MANIFESTATIONS OF THE SEXUAL IMPULSE-1.4
AUTO-EROTISM: A STUDY OF THE SPONTANEOUS MANIFESTATIONS OF THE SEXUAL IMPULSE-1.5
AUTO-EROTISM: A STUDY OF THE SPONTANEOUS MANIFESTATIONS OF THE SEXUAL IMPULSE-1.6
FOOTNOTES
AUTO-EROTISM: A STUDY OF THE SPONTANEOUS MANIFESTATIONS OF THE SEXUAL IMPULSE-2.1
AUTO-EROTISM: A STUDY OF THE SPONTANEOUS MANIFESTATIONS OF THE SEXUAL IMPULSE-2.2
AUTO-EROTISM: A STUDY OF THE SPONTANEOUS MANIFESTATIONS OF THE SEXUAL IMPULSE-2.3
AUTO-EROTISM: A STUDY OF THE SPONTANEOUS MANIFESTATIONS OF THE SEXUAL IMPULSE-2.4
AUTO-EROTISM: A STUDY OF THE SPONTANEOUS MANIFESTATIONS OF THE SEXUAL IMPULSE-3.1
AUTO-EROTISM: A STUDY OF THE SPONTANEOUS MANIFESTATIONS OF THE SEXUAL IMPULSE-3.2
AUTO-EROTISM: A STUDY OF THE SPONTANEOUS MANIFESTATIONS OF THE SEXUAL IMPULSE-3.3
AUTO-EROTISM: A STUDY OF THE SPONTANEOUS MANIFESTATIONS OF THE SEXUAL IMPULSE-3.4
AUTO-EROTISM: A STUDY OF THE SPONTANEOUS MANIFESTATIONS OF THE SEXUAL IMPULSE-3.5
AUTO-EROTISM: A STUDY OF THE SPONTANEOUS MANIFESTATIONS OF THE SEXUAL IMPULSE-3.6
AUTO-EROTISM: A STUDY OF THE SPONTANEOUS MANIFESTATIONS OF THE SEXUAL IMPULSE-3.7
FOOTNOTES
APPENDIX A-1.1
APPENDIX A-1.2
APPENDIX B-1.1
APPENDIX B-1.2
APPENDIX C-1.1
APPENDIX C-1.2
INDEX OF AUTHORS

sensations was when I was about 16, and in sleep. But I did not 

then recognize it, and seldom, indeed, gave the subject of sex a 

thought. I was a child far beyond the age of childhood. The 

accompanying dreams were disagreeable, but I cannot remember what 

they were about. It was not until I was nearly 19 that I knew the 

sexual orgasm in my waking state. It surprised me completely, 

but I knew that I had known it before in my sleep. 

 

"The knowledge came one summer when I was leading a rather 

isolated life, and my mind was far from sex subjects, being deep 

in books, Carlyle, Ruskin, Huxley, Darwin, Scott, etc. I noticed 

that when I got up in the morning I felt very hot and 

uncomfortable. The clitoris and the parts around were swollen and 

erect, and often tender and painful. I had no idea what it was, 

but found I was unable to pass my water for an hour or two. One 

day, when I was straining a little to pass water, the full orgasm 

occurred. The next time it happened, I tried to check it by 

holding myself firmly, of course, with the opposite result. I do 

not know that I found it highly pleasurable, but it was a very 

great relief. I allowed myself a good many experiments, to come 

to a conclusion in the matter, and I thought about it. I was much 

too shy to speak to any one, and thought it was probably a sin. I 

tried not to do it, and not to think about it, saying to myself 

that surely I was lord of my body. But I found that the matter 

was not entirely under my control. However unwilling or passive I 

might be, there were times when the involuntary discomfort was 

not in my keeping. My touching myself or not did not save me from 

it. Because it sometimes gave me pleasure, I thought it might be 

a form of self-indulgence, and did not do it until it could 

scarcely be helped. Soon the orgasm began to occur fairly 

frequently in my sleep, perhaps once or twice a week. I had no 

erotic dreams, then or at any other time, but I had nights of 

restless sleep, and woke as it occurred, dreaming that it was 

happening, as, in fact, it was. At times I hardly awoke, but went 

to sleep again in a moment. I continued for two or three years to 

be sorely tried by day at frequent intervals. I acquired a 

remarkable degree of control, so that, though one touch or 

steadily directed thought would have caused the orgasm, I could 

keep it off, and go to sleep without 'wrong doing.' Of course, 

when I fell asleep, my control ended. All this gave me a good 

deal of physical worry, and kept my attention unwillingly fixed 

upon the matter. I do not think my body was readily irritable, 

but I had unquestionably very strong sexual impulses. 


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