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GENERAL PREFACE
THE EVOLUTION OF MODESTY-1.1
THE EVOLUTION OF MODESTY-1.2
THE EVOLUTION OF MODESTY-1.3
THE EVOLUTION OF MODESTY-1.4
THE EVOLUTION OF MODESTY-1.5
THE EVOLUTION OF MODESTY-1.6
THE EVOLUTION OF MODESTY-2.1
THE EVOLUTION OF MODESTY-2.2
THE EVOLUTION OF MODESTY-2.3
THE EVOLUTION OF MODESTY-2.4
THE EVOLUTION OF MODESTY-2.5
THE EVOLUTION OF MODESTY-3
THE EVOLUTION OF MODESTY-4
THE PHENOMENA OF SEXUAL PERIODICITY-1.1
THE PHENOMENA OF SEXUAL PERIODICITY-1.2
FOOTNOTES
THE PHENOMENA OF SEXUAL PERIODICITY-2.1
THE PHENOMENA OF SEXUAL PERIODICITY-2.2
THE PHENOMENA OF SEXUAL PERIODICITY-2.3
THE PHENOMENA OF SEXUAL PERIODICITY-3.1
THE PHENOMENA OF SEXUAL PERIODICITY-3.2
THE PHENOMENA OF SEXUAL PERIODICITY-3.3
THE PHENOMENA OF SEXUAL PERIODICITY-3.4
THE PHENOMENA OF SEXUAL PERIODICITY-3.5
FOOTNOTES
AUTO-EROTISM: A STUDY OF THE SPONTANEOUS MANIFESTATIONS OF THE SEXUAL IMPULSE-1.1
AUTO-EROTISM: A STUDY OF THE SPONTANEOUS MANIFESTATIONS OF THE SEXUAL IMPULSE-1.2
AUTO-EROTISM: A STUDY OF THE SPONTANEOUS MANIFESTATIONS OF THE SEXUAL IMPULSE-1.3
AUTO-EROTISM: A STUDY OF THE SPONTANEOUS MANIFESTATIONS OF THE SEXUAL IMPULSE-1.4
AUTO-EROTISM: A STUDY OF THE SPONTANEOUS MANIFESTATIONS OF THE SEXUAL IMPULSE-1.5
AUTO-EROTISM: A STUDY OF THE SPONTANEOUS MANIFESTATIONS OF THE SEXUAL IMPULSE-1.6
FOOTNOTES
AUTO-EROTISM: A STUDY OF THE SPONTANEOUS MANIFESTATIONS OF THE SEXUAL IMPULSE-2.1
AUTO-EROTISM: A STUDY OF THE SPONTANEOUS MANIFESTATIONS OF THE SEXUAL IMPULSE-2.2
AUTO-EROTISM: A STUDY OF THE SPONTANEOUS MANIFESTATIONS OF THE SEXUAL IMPULSE-2.3
AUTO-EROTISM: A STUDY OF THE SPONTANEOUS MANIFESTATIONS OF THE SEXUAL IMPULSE-2.4
AUTO-EROTISM: A STUDY OF THE SPONTANEOUS MANIFESTATIONS OF THE SEXUAL IMPULSE-3.1
AUTO-EROTISM: A STUDY OF THE SPONTANEOUS MANIFESTATIONS OF THE SEXUAL IMPULSE-3.2
AUTO-EROTISM: A STUDY OF THE SPONTANEOUS MANIFESTATIONS OF THE SEXUAL IMPULSE-3.3
AUTO-EROTISM: A STUDY OF THE SPONTANEOUS MANIFESTATIONS OF THE SEXUAL IMPULSE-3.4
AUTO-EROTISM: A STUDY OF THE SPONTANEOUS MANIFESTATIONS OF THE SEXUAL IMPULSE-3.5
AUTO-EROTISM: A STUDY OF THE SPONTANEOUS MANIFESTATIONS OF THE SEXUAL IMPULSE-3.6
AUTO-EROTISM: A STUDY OF THE SPONTANEOUS MANIFESTATIONS OF THE SEXUAL IMPULSE-3.7
FOOTNOTES
APPENDIX A-1.1
APPENDIX A-1.2
APPENDIX B-1.1
APPENDIX B-1.2
APPENDIX C-1.1
APPENDIX C-1.2
INDEX OF AUTHORS

I saw, and I even thought that he had a partiality for me.' She was also 

haunted by the idea of preserving her purity. She avoided frivolous 

conversation, and left the room when marriage was discussed, such a union 

being incompatible with a pure life; 'it was my fixed idea for two years 

to make my soul ever more pure in order to be agreeable to Him; the 

Beloved is well pleased among the lilies.' 

 

"Already, however, in a rudimentary form appeared contrary tendencies 

[strictly speaking they were not contrary, but related, tendencies]. 

Beneath the mystic passion which concealed it sexual desire was sometimes 

felt. At sixteen she experienced emotions which she could not master, when 

thinking of a priest who, she said, loved her. In spite of all remorse she 

would have been willing to have relations with him. Notwithstanding these 

passing weaknesses, the idea of purity always possessed her. The nuns, 

however, were concerned about her exaltation. She was sent away from the 

convent, became discouraged, and took a place as a servant, but her fervor 

continued. Her confessor inspired her with great affection; she sends him 

tender letters. She would be willing to have relations with him, even 

though she considers the desire a temptation of the devil. The ground was 

now prepared for the manifestation of hallucinations. 'One evening in 

May', she writes, 'after being absorbed in thoughts of my confessor, and 

feeling discouraged, as I thought that Jesus, whom I loved so much, would 

have nothing to do with me, "Mother," I cried out, "what must I do to win 

your son?" My eyes were fixed on the sky, and I remained in a state of 

mad expectation. It was absurd. I to become the mother of the World! My 

heart went on repeating: "Yes, he is coming; Jesus is coming!"' The 

psychic erethism, reverberating on the sensorial and sensory centres, led 

to genital, auditory, and visual hallucinations, which produced the 

sensation of sexual connection. 'For the first time I went to bed and was 

not alone. As soon as I felt that touch, I heard the words: "Fear not, it 

is I." I was lost in Him whom I loved. For many days I was cradled in a 

world of pleasure; I saw Him everywhere, overwhelming me with His chaste 

caresses.' On the following day at mass she seemed to see Calvary before 

her. 'Jesus was naked and surrounded by a thousand voluptuous 

imaginations; His arms were loosened from the cross, and he said to me: 

"Come!" I longed to fly to Him with my body, but could not make up my mind 

to show myself naked. However, I was carried away by a force I could not 

control, I threw myself on my Saviour's neck, and felt that all was over 

between the world and me.' From that day, 'by sheer reasoning,' she has 

understood everything. Previously she thought that the religious life was 

a renunciation of the joys of marriage and enjoyment generally; now she 

understands its object. Jesus Christ desires that she should have 

relations with a priest; he is himself incarnated in priests; just as St. 

Joseph was the guardian of the Virgin, so are priests the guardians of 

nuns. She has been impregnated by Jesus, and this imaginary pregnancy 

pre-occupies her in the highest degree. From this time she masturbated 

daily. She cannot even go to communion without experiencing voluptuous 

sensations. Her delusions having thus become systematized, nothing shakes 

her tenacity in seeking to carry them out; she attempts at all costs to 


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